I am (y/fn). A woman in the age of 25 with a German as a husband and two children.
I'm also a woman who once loved and will not forget a certain Italian...ever.
Walking in the pier, feeling the air pass through me, making my white dress flutter in the wind, I sighed then turned to my husband to ask a question.
" Ludwig, do you still remember Feli? "
I then turned back toward the sea and closed my eyes. It was noon. A hot yet cool, summer noon and I asked that question out of nowhere. I don't know why but...I suddenly have the urge to ask.
I waited for his answer but was then greeted with silence. I could not hear the usual scrunch of his footsteps in the sand...so, he stopped walking, hm? I opened my eyes and veered to look at him.
He did stopped walking and his head is down with his arms hanging low by his sides.
I looked at him in worry and murmured, " Ludwig...? "
He suddenly spoke up and said, " Ja. I could still remember him...of course. "
I stared at him in slight surprise then my eyes softened. I walked up to him and placed my hands on both sides of his cheeks. I brought his face closer to mine and rested my forehead against his.
" I do, too. " I softly smiled.
"...And I miss him. His happy-go-lucky and sometimes cowardly personality, his infectious smile, his hugs, his 'Ve~!' s...everything about him. I miss him a lot and I know that you do too. " , I added.
He smiled back and looked me in the eye. " Ja. "
We stood like that for some time...Calmly feeling the cool noon air, unmoving, still, motionless. We cherished each other's presence and smiled at the moment. We felt like no one but the two of us are in here. Yes...no one.
I, then, gently removed my hands from his cheeks and turned back to gaze at the horizon. He too, gazed at it in silence.
"You know, We first met here... " I trailed off.
" Aaah~ Almost there... " You gritted your teeth in determination while reaching for your hat that is currently afloat in the water using a stick.
" Just a little moooore... " you stick your tongue out in the side of your lips.
" Ah! Got i- "
Someone suddenly placed a hand on your shoulder.
" Um, bella? Do you need any hel-"
" Aaaah! What the-?! " You lost your balance and fell on the water.
...While unconsciously pulling the man with you. Oh, what incredible luck you do have.
" V-Veh?! "
Luckily, the water is not that deep and it only reaches to your knees. You fell to your bottom then you slowly opened your eyes to be welcomed by your soaked hat that is now on top of your head.
Then you heard a groan...
" Veh...That kinda hurts... "
You slowly lifted the hat off you while thinking, 'Whoa there, who the hell is...'
You then blushed with a thousand shades of red, seeing the man on top of you then shrieked, " Aaaah! Wh-What are you doing?! "
" Veh? What am I doing? "
The man then opened his eyes and looked at the position of the two of you then obliviously blinked.
" I'm just helping you, bella. " he innocently looked at you with a ' I'm-not-doing-anything-wrong' look.
You looked at him then at your position then back at him with a ' Yes-you-are' look.
He looked again at the position of the two of you then suddenly blushed. " O-oh! I'm sorry, bella! " he quickly stood up then held out a hand for you to stand up.
You took his hand and smiled at him.
" I'm sorry too for bringing you with me in the water! "
" Hehe. No, it's also my fault. I surprised you. "
"Hm, it's okay. By the way, the name's (y/n). " you held out your hand for a handshake.
" What a beautiful name like you, bella! I'm Feliciano Vargas but you can call me Feli instead! It's nice to meet you, bella! " he gleefully said but instead of shaking you hand, he hugged you instead.
You were startled at first but you slowly hugged back and softly smiled.
" It's nice to meet you too, Feli. "
~End of Flashback~
I looked at the orange-turning-red sky then chuckled. " Look at the sky, Luddy. "
He walked beside me and looked up. " According to him, the colour is like pasta sauce." he said with a ghost of a smile.
I chuckled again. " Yes. And he also said that the next time he saw the sky with this colour, he'll be sure to bring pasta and eat it...too bad he's not here with us..."
Ludwig face suddenly turned sullen. " Ja..."
You just continued to watch the sky. Ludwig looked at you in worry.
"Now...how about we get going already. We still need to visit him, ja? " he said with a small and gentle smile to cheer you up a little.
You turned to him absent-mindedly. " Oh...yes. We still have to visit Feli... "
You started walking to the wooden floorboard until you reach the edge of the port. Ludwig handed you a basket of pink carnations. You took it then crouched down and stopped an inch before the basket touch the water and said, " F-Feli, here w-we are right now...I-It's been a while since we last v-visited you, r-right? " tears started to well into your eyes.
" W-we brought pink carnations!" you tried to smile and sound happy while speaking, " We h-hope you like it! W-We really mi...mi...mi... " Now you can't stop it. The tears that welled up in all this years, the tears that you've hidden behind smiles, and the tears which is because of one man, Feli. Now you're crying and you can't stop it. You dropped the basket of pink carnations and Ludwig rushed to your side immediately. You started to thrash your arms in different directions.
" Why?! Why do you to be so...so unfair! Why do you have to leave us here?! Do you know what it feels ?! Why?! Answer me, Feli! If...if I could take the chance to punch you in the face right now, I'll beat you up for leaving us so early! You hear that?! " Your eyes clouding for all the tears that is flowing out of eyes. Ludwig is doing his best to hold you, preventing you to hurt yourself. He, also, have tears flowing out of his eyes while saying, " (y/n), please, stop it...please...please..."
You are so angry at the world, at yourself, and especially at Feli.
"Feli! Come back here! " You shouted at the horizon, crying without stop.
~ Feli's POV ~
(y/n)...She's crying because of me. Even Ludwig is crying, too. I-I don't want to see them cry. I want them to realize that I'm always by their side, protecting, guiding, and helping them at all times, with the best that I could. Even I, I miss all of them...
I miss the Axis, the Allies, the Nordics, the Soviet Union, the Austrian and Spanish Household, the Asians, The Kirkland Family, the Middle Eastern Countries, the Micronations, and...(y/n). Even though I'm not close with all of them, even though we always fight with one another...I miss them all.
A year has already passed since my death and today...is it's anniversary.
I'll go down to Earth...even just for a while. To say goodbye, to clean things up, to say the things that I didn't have the chance to say to the people I loved and cared for me.
I'm still shouting at the horizon, hoping that those words could reach him. And then I squeezed my eyes shut, saying to myself that he would never come back. Ludwig is still holding me by the arms. Thanks to him, I didn't threw myself in the water.
Then I felt his hold loosen and he suddenly became quiet. I opened my eyes to see why and there I see, in front of me is the man I wanted to see...Feli.
" Hi (y/n). " he softly said with a smile.
I'm think my eyes are deceiving me right now. Ludwig let go of me and is shock in the same way as I am.
" Feli... " my eyes started to water again and I started to wlak towards him. I stopped in front of him and touched his cheek.
" Feli, is that really you...? "
He just softly smiled and nodded.
" Yes, it is I, (y/n). "
My hands started to travel in his collar then I roughly grabbed it and started shaking him wildly.
" Feli! How dare you! Just suddenly coming here and then saying Hi like nothing happened?! I'm really going to kill you for the second time!" I shouted at him then started crying.
" I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I really hate you, Feli..." I whimpered while banging my hands fists on his chest. The volume of my voice decreasing as it succumbed to my cries. He hugged me close and I started to cry on his chest.
" Why...Why did you die?...Why do you have to come back? "
He looked down at me with a gentle smile. That smile that I missed. Somehow...in the past, every time I look at it, it would also make me smile. But right now...it makes me break down in tears. To think that I could not see that smile again. To think that this might be the last time...
" I came to say goodbye properly. I didn't have the chance to do so, last time... " he said while looking at me then at Ludwig.
I didn't responded but he knows that I'm listening.
" I'm very sorry I left this world earlier than expected...I'm really sorry, (y/n). I miss all of you, really. If I could describe how much I miss all of you, It'll take a thousand words to say it. "
I nodded in his chest.
" Hey...May I ask you a favor, (y/n)? "
I let go from his hug and looked at him in the eyes to see anything from it. But...just like before, I still couldn't read him. I nodded at him to continue.
" Please don't cry for me anymore. I hate to see you cry...just because of me. Every time I see tears flowing from that beautiful face of yours, I can't help but think that this is all of my fault. I can't help but blame myself. It hurts me a lot to leave you, you know. It hurts a lot here... " he looked down and pointed at the spot where his heart lies then continued, " Please do understand. I don't want I want to see you cry. I want to see your smiles the most. "
He looked back again at me with eyes that are hoping for me to say 'yes'.
I sighed and closed my eyes with a smile. This really is the Feliciano Vargas that I know. The man with that sweet curl in the right. The man with that gentle yet playful smile. The man with that gentle brown eyes...
...The man that I learned to love and care for in the past.
I open my eyes and spoke up with all the honesty and sincerity that I could muster. "...Yes. Of course I will, Feli. But first... "
Feliciano's palms started to sweat. ' But first...? '
I walked to where I dropped the basket of pink carnations. I saw some it that are now floating in the water. ' Sigh...what a waste. It is very reckless of me to breakdown while I'm holding this precious flowers that are supposed to be for Feli... ' I said to myself.
I began to pick up the flowers that are still on the ground and collected them in the basket.
Feli walked up to me in worry. " (y/n)...? Need some help? "
I shook my head. I finished picking up all the flowers then I stood up and handed it to Feliciano.
" For you. " I looked down in shame and continued, " I'm sorry but some of it are already in the water. I dropped some it while...I'm crying earlier. These are pink carnations meaning... " I looked up to him. " I will never forget you. "
He smiled lovingly and took it with a sigh of relief. " Thank you, (y/n). "
He walked up to me and kissed me on the forehead.
" I'll count on you to always smile, 'kay? And I'll never forget you too. " he whispered to my ear.
For some reason, I slowly fell asleep and was caught in Feli's arms. He carried me, bridal-style, with the basket of carnations with him then turned to Ludwig and walked towards him.
" Long time no see, Luddy. "
" Hm. Long time no see to you too, Feliciano. "
" Thank you for taking care of (y/n). "
" No need to thank me. This is what I want to do. "
Feliciano handed (y/n) to Ludwig then spoke, " You really love her, do you? "
" Ja. More than anything. " Ludwig looked down at (y/n)'s sleeping form lovingly then glanced at Feliciano.
"...And I know that you do too. "
Feliciano stared at a distance in the setting sun then nods. " You already know? " he said with a small smile.
" Of course. With all the loving gazes that you give her, I already know it. " Ludwig paused and watched the horizon too.
" At that time, I also love her too but I didn't have that much hope because I can see that she loves you back. But..." Ludwig looked down then his fists clenched. "...I didn't know that you'll...you'll..."
Feliciano chuckled. " Die? I'm surprised myself too, you know. "
Ludwig looked at Feliciano sadly. " You really are full of surprises. I'm amazed to see you this calm about this. "
Feliciano turned at his friend. " I've learned to accept it. Because... I know that there's nothing I can do if I won't accept my fate. It may be hard, but I need to, veh? "
Ludwig nodded. " It's been a while to hear that 'Ve~' of yours. "
" Eh? It's weird hearing you say 'Veh~' " Feli giggled.
Ludwig blushed curtly. " Shut it, Feliciano. I'll only say it once, so cherish it while it still lasts. "
" If you say so~ " Feliciano started laughed.
Still blushing in embarrassment, he joined Feliciano in laughing.
When the laughter died down, he said, " It's good to see you again, Feli. And...here."
He took Feliciano's hand and placed a small flower in it then watched the sunset again.
Feliciano looked down at it in surprise and smiled. " Pink carnations... " He looked at Ludwig to see him watching the sunset. He too, turned towards the horizon and chuckled. "...It's good to see you too, Ludwig. "
Both of them watched the sun go down in silence until Feli softly spoke, " I think I need to go now. As much as I want to stay but this is the longest that I can be here on Earth. Take care of her, alright? "
Feliciano walked up toward (y/n) then leaned in to kiss her in the cheek and whispered with eyes staring at her lovingly, " This is my goodbye, bella. Until we meet again...Please don't forget me. "
Then he turned his back on Ludwig and (y/n). A bright light suddenly shone and a golden door appeared in front of him.
With the basket of carnations on his left hand, Feliciano faced the two again and cheerfully said, with a big smile and tears flowing down his face, " Ciao~! " he waved his right hand then using his left hand, he threw the flowers in the air. After that, a blinding light succumbed him. Just then, at the exact moment when the light appeared, strong wave of gentle wave blew and made the pink carnations scatter in the wind...
Everyone felt it...
...The whole world felt it.
As I calmly walked, between Sakura trees and with its pink leaves falling over me, a strong yet very warm huff of wind passed through me. Resulting the trees to rustle and to sway, the leaves and flowers to dance and fly in different directions.
I closed my eyes to appreciate this warm feeling and atmosphere.
After a few moments, I opened my eyes and there I saw in the midst of the dancing Sakura petals, is a lone stalk of a pretty pink carnation. I held out my hand and caught it. I took a sniff and murmured with a calm smile, " Goodbye, Fericiano-san. I won't forget you. "
~At the Allied Forces' meeting place ~
They are currently having a meeting today that consisted of fights, heroes, flying mint bunnies, wines, vodka, and pandas.
" -and of course, I'll finish the day with me being the hero to save the day! " Alfred ended his speech with a laugh that was then cut off with Arthur strangling him.
" Bloody git, not this again! "
"Well, well ~ If the two of you are going to release your sexual tension here, Angleterre, then let me join~ "
" Aaargh!!! Now you too?! "
Now, Arthur is strangling two people. Alfred and Francis.
Yao sighed and angrily muttered while eating his dumplings.
" Why can't this Western people be civilized even once, aru! Hmph! "
" Weeeell, if you become one with Mother Russia, maybe that would happen, da? "
Yao shivered from head to toe. 'Oh my Budhha...' ,he thought then sweat-dropped.
" Ehehe...Not now, Ivan...I think I'm- "
A sudden gust of wind blew and the papers sitting on the table started to fly all over the place and one of it slapped Francis in the face. While everyone suddenly stopped as they saw pink fluffy flowers dancing in the air along with the papers flying.
" Did...anyone of you just felt Feli?...because I did." Alfred asked, confused. " And...wow. This is just, Wow. " He said while watching the flowers.
Arthur started to loosen his hold on Alfred's and Francis' necks. " I-I definitely did. "
" Shi. I did too, aru. "
" Da, me too. "
Ivan caught a stalk and placed it in his breast pocket. " It would have been nicer if these are sunflowers...but in any way, these are beautiful too. "
" Big brother France even heard someone said 'Pasta'. " Francis said, dumbfounded, while watching a small carnation passing in front of him.
Even Matthew and Kumajiro felt it. " I-I did. " he quietly answered.
Everyone including Kumajiro questioned, " Who are you? "
Matthew sighed and said to himself, ' I know this is going to happen...but at the very least, I'm thankful they noticed my presence. ' then he answered while removing a flower stuck in Kumajiro's snout, " I'm Matthew. "
~At the Nordics's House~
" Big Brother. "
" Are we repeating this again? " Emil groaned.
" I won't stop bugging you until you call me 'Big Brother'. " Lukas blankly said.
" I told you. NO. " Emil replied, annoyed.
Mathias suddenly popped out between Lukas and Emil and loudly shouted, " Hey! Call me Big Bro too! "
" Oi? Me too! All of us wants to be called Big Brother~! Ne, Su-san? " Tino sweetly said.
Berwald just grunted while Peter is running around the house shouting, " I want to be a countr-"
When suddenly, he was cut off by a strong wind.
The room became filled with floating flowers. It's like the room moved into a different dimension.
Everyone watched in winder and silence as the flowers danced.
Just then, Peter broke the silence and quietly spoke up, " ...Feli? "
~At the house of the Soviet Union ~
" Like, this dress is just so fabulous! This would totally suit me! " Feliks fabulously said.
Toris sweat-dropped. " If you say so. "
" H-Hey Eduard, Wh-what are you d-doing? "
" Oh Hi,Raivis. As you can see, I'm surfing the ne- "
" Eeeek! The dress, Lithi! Chase the dress! It's being carried away by the wind! " Feliks shrieked.
Toris sighed. " Alright, alright. "
" O-Oh! What a strong wind!...and flowers? " Raivis exclaimed.
Eduard turned and twirled his rotating computer chair to watch the flowers in wonder but anxiously said, " Hey...guys? Did you just, you know, felt someone? When the wind blown? With flowers? "
Toris stopped chasing Feliks' dress and replied, " ...I did. These are also just...beautiful. Very."
" U-um, yeah. " Raivis started to shiver. " But don't tell me, it's a...ghost! "
Feliks rolled his eyes. " Ugh. Like, yeah, I did felt someone. It's kinda creepy, you know? But, at least the flowers are pink! Look! " he pointed out then added, " And Lithi, like, don't stop chasing the dress! "
Toris ignored Feliks and asked, " Hey, Did you felt Feli? "
They all stopped to what they are doing and looked at Toris then slowly nodded.
~At the Austrian Household: In the Garden~
Roderich is currently playing the piano while Elizabeta is singing along with it when a certain Prussian suddenly barged in and destroyed the calm atmosphere.
" Kesesese! Now, where's the party? " he loudly called.
Roderich immediately stopped and Elizabeta sharply glared at the albino.
"Gilbert..." she gritted her teeth and started to pull out a frying pan from under her apron. " I'M TOTALLY GONNA KILL YOU!!! "
Elizabeta is just gonna run for Gilbert but then, a sudden gust of wind strongly blew.
Elizabeta stopped in her tracks and so are Gilbert and Roderich.
She started to softly smile and looked up at the sky to see pink carnations everywhere.
" Awesome... It's like a miracle. " Gilbert muttered and also looked up.
Elizabeta then asked, " Roderich, it's Feli is it not? "
Roderich walked towards the glass table abreast the piano and started to pour himself tea then he calmly sat down and replied with a smile, " Why, yes. It is Feli. "
~ At the Asians~
" I now claim your breasts as mine, Mei! " Im Yong Soo exclaimed then lunged forward to the said young woman.
" Eeeek! No!!! " Mei shrieked.
" Ahahahaha- "
" Bang! " The sound of a rice paddle hit his head that cut him off his laughing.
" Ow! Lien!!! "
" Ouch. That sounds like it hurts...a lot. " Leon muttered, not looking up from making his lantern.
" How many times do I have to tell you! Don't EVER touch a woman's breasts! " Lien scolded.
" Uuughh...Leon, help meee.... " Yong Soo whimpered.
Kaoru turned his gaze from his work into Yong Soo and replied with a blank stare, "...You deserve it. "
" Eeeeh! Leooooon!!! Even you too?! " Im Yong Soo ranted.
" Now, now. Please stop that, you guys...Chao Min? Any help here? " Kasem Chao said trying to stop the would-be fight.
Chao Min looked up from what he's reading and said, " Hey. Guys, stop it. " then turned back to where he's reading.
Kasem Chao sweat-dropped. " What... "
The window before them suddenly flipped open as a wind gushed through it.
Everyone stopped and looked at the window before them to see a beautiful sunset.
All of them sat down, side-by-side each other, and faced the window in silence while Leon picked up his lantern from the table.
As Im Yong Soo, Mei, Lien and Chao Min were finally settled down, Kasem Chao started, " Goodbye, Feliciano-san... "
Then Leon headed toward the window and lit up his lantern,
" May you shine bright like the stars in the sky... "
...then he made it fly high.
" ... fly way higher than any bird could fly... " Leon whispered then sat down beside Chao Min.
" ...may you rest in peace and guide us like an angel could be. " Everyone said then bowed altogether.
And the lantern flew along with pink carnations in the sky.
~At the Kirkland Family's Home~
" Hey, folks! " Jett greeted the others as he walked in the room.
Allistor snorted. " What brings ya' here, kid? "
The Australian grinned. " Nothing. I just wanted to visit my beloved brothers~! "
Angus and Allistor looked at each other then at Jett, with narrowed eyes. "...Really? "
" Why are you looking at me like that...Anyway, of course! Why, is it already wrong to just visit my brothers? "
Dylan groaned. " Guys, guys. Keep your voices down. "
Jett stared at him then asked, "...What's up with him? "
Angus piped out, " He have a hang-over~ "
" And to top it off, he got beaten by me in a drinking contest~! " Allistor chirped.
" So you should be quiet if you don't want to piss him off. " they whispered in unison.
" Oooooh...so that's it. " then he smiled mischievously and started to loudly say, " But being quiet is BOOOORING~! "
A vein popped in Dylan's and he started to strangle the loud Australian.
" You're just so damn loud, ain't you?! "
" WHOOSH! "
" Feli...ciano...Vargas... " was all that they could say.
~At Turkey, Greece, and Egypt's~
" Zzzzzz... "
" Hey, do you know why I wear a mask? " Sadiq grinned.
Gupta gave him a blank stare and replied, " I don't know. "
" It all started because- "
" And I don't care. " he replied but it was not heard by Sadiq who stopped speaking due to the strong wind.
Heracles woke up and was welcomed with a pink carnation floating above his nose. " Beautiful... " he murmured while rubbing his eyes, " It's...Feliciano...isn't it? "
Sadiq proudly smiled as he watched the flowers. " Yep. That's the good ol' brave Italian who bravely fought and beaten me once. "
~At the Spanish Household~
" Hey-a Tomato Bastard! Bring your-a butt over here and-a help me with this basket of tomatoes! " Lovino shouted behind the tall plants of tomatoes.
" Coming~! Roma! " the Spaniard cheerfully replied.
" Ugh! Me too! This baskets sure are heavy! If only a certain 'SOMEONE' is helping me here! " Emma groaned.
Tim grunted. " Wait a sec, Bella. Let me finish my budget plan first. "
Bella fumed. " My goodness, Tim! Help me out already! " she whined.
He sighed. " Okay, Okay. "
" Eh?! Lovi, where are you? " Antonio probed his eyes through the tall tomato plants for any sign of the said Italian.
" I'm-a behind here you-a bastard! "
Antonio chuckled. " Alright. Coming! No need to be angry! "
A strong wind then passed through them and blew Lovino's hat off while everyone stopped in what they are doing.
" Eeeeh! My-a hat! " Lovino exclaimed then chased for his hat as he passed through Emma who seemed to be entranced to the flowers in the air, to Tim who stopped in his tracks and to Antonio who is looking up in the flowers with a smile.
He ran for his hat until he reached a field of pink carnations where he finally caught it.
" Aha! I-a finally got you! "
He stood up and adjusted the hat on his head. He then looked up to be welcomed with a red-orange sky.
His eyes started to water and a tear escaped from his right eye that rolled down his cheek while saying the words,
" Goodbye my-a pasta-loving bastard of a brother...I will-a never forget you. "
Everyone have felt it. Everyone knows that he may be already gone but he won't be forgotten. Feliciano Vargas will always be in their hearts forever.
As you sleep soundly, cradled in Ludwig's arms, he began to head home while watching the pink carnations fly in the air then you suddenly murmured in your sleep,
" We won't forget you...Feli. "
Ludwig looked at you and smiled.
" Ja. We won't forget him. We won't. "